Wednesday, March 25, 2015

On Us and Them


I, like so many people, was at one point fascinated by the Tudors and Henry XIII’s exploits with his wives and his tumultuous relationship with Christianity, particularly the Vatican.  The ripple effect the impassioned decisions made by King Henry XIII set families against themselves for generations to come.    The Reformation and the Counter-Reformation split one of the world’s largest religions into two competing branches.  I like that imagery.  It is very important to understand why the world is the way it is.  The history of religion, namely Christianity, is something everyone who calls it their faith should understand and put into context.  I realize this is my opinion, but this is a blog entry, right?  I believe faith is a wonderful thing to have.  But I also think blind faith is dangerous.  People with blind faith are easily manipulated and even easier sent in the wrong direction.  Informed faith, with the understanding that most things will never be understood, but it’s okay to be open to new information as it comes, is much more beneficial to society.
            Why do people become so offended when someone disagrees with them?  What is it about the human condition that causes a person to become suspicious and affronted by anyone who believes differently?  What are they so afraid of?    I realize that this doesn’t apply to everyone, but it explains the majority.    People kill each other over differences of opinion regarding their heart-felt beliefs.  They always have.  It makes me wonder if they always will?  I would hope not.   I’m holding on to the notion that the world is about to undergo another major transformation.   My fear would be that, as mentioned before, it usually takes a catastrophic event to upset the status quo enough for change to happen.  It’s not something that keeps me up at night or anything, but it’s always just sort of there in the background.   I watch the news looking for it from time to time.   I realize the world is about to outgrow itself.  Earth can’t sustain this many people.  But enough fear mongering.  I can’t worry about things I can’t control.  It’s a waste of energy.   Just some thoughts for today.

Thursday, February 5, 2015

In honor of my hero - Boots Hodge


ON FREEMAN “BOOTS” HODGE

Boots was born either June 1st or June 2nd.  The man with two birthdays.  His mother Alice said it was the first.  The state said otherwise.  His mother wasn’t the kind of woman one wanted to argue with.   Neither was his father.  Flavius Hodge carried a gun on his hip and rode a horse for transportation.  His grandmother was supposedly a Choctaw princess, his grandfather, according to legend, was an outlaw on the run in the Oklahoma territory.  These are only pieces of the early legend of Freeman “Boots” Hodge.  In truth, very little was known about his grandparents on his father’s side.  His father, Flavius was a half-breed who didn’t own a car until the 1950s.  Evidently he wasn’t the kind of man you messed with.

Boots came from a big family.  There were seven kids.  They, like many families in those days, called each other nicknames that stuck through the rest of their lives.  His older sister’s name was Gal.  Boots had a brother named Buster, who looked almost identical to him after they’d both lost their hair and wore horn-rimmed glasses.  We thought we had two Grandpa Boots the first time we saw him.  “Two Grandpa’s was like having two Santa Clauses!”  He had another brother named Pee-Wee and one named Buddy.  Tobe and Pete didn’t get as colorful nicknames but they were spoken about fondly by the rest of the family.   They lived in New Mexico and western Texas during the 1920s.  This was the dustbowl.   The hard times that followed him around for his entire childhood began in those wild, untamed, arid climes.  He grew up tough and quickly.  He grew to have grit.  He was put to work by the time he could mount a horse, which was about around the time he could walk.   They scraped and busted their tails from sun up to sun down and still barely had a pot to piss in.  He’d work all day only to find out the fella he’d labored for didn’t have a dollar to give him.  He’d sometimes have to settle for food or practical items as forms of trade.  Boots learned early on how to be resourceful.    He also learned that family, a strong one, could survive anything.

The event that would end the challenging chapter of his childhood would be World War Two.   He enlisted and was sent to the South Pacific, the Solomon Islands, Guadalcanal to be more specific.  Four of his brothers fought overseas during the war.  His family had no idea where those boys were for three to four years.  Boots snuck a reference to the Bible and Solomon into one of his letters and it made it past the censors.   Alice Hodge had dark hair when Boots left in 1942 and white when he got back in 1945.  Boots never once talked about the war.  He never watched a single war movie.  He had nightmares so violent and horrific that he rarely slept through the night without a violent episode.    He remarked later that he was surprised and grateful his wife Madie put up with him.   Madie was equally special in her temperament as he was and they made the perfect couple.  She was patient and kind hearted to the ninth degree.  Snippets gathered from visiting war buddies over the years began to imply that Boots saw and experienced the worst of the seven hells.   All he’d say about it was, “You can have a unit of men march and fight through the jungle and when they come out the other side you’ll have as many different versions of what happened as there are men left to tell about it.”  He lost a lot of buddies in those jungles.   It is unclear but he once insinuated that he’d been a sniper of sorts perched atop a jungle tree and taken out many a “Jap”.  It was made to me in reference of his plan to shoot a dog that was harassing his cattle.  He could put an eye out from some extraordinary distance was the initial hint, and something along the lines of that’s what he did over there from a treetop.   One story he did relay openly to me on one of my magical Sunday visits after his wife passed and I was in college, goes thusly:  He was unloading a ship and was bringing a load to shore when the ship was struck by a torpedo and blown to pieces right before his eyes.  He’d missed it by minutes.  Another time he ducked to tie a bootstrap and a shell flew right over his back.  His unit was lost and he wondered around the theater for a while, joining with different units along the way.  He drove a bulldozer for one unit and may or may not have had a pet monkey. 

The years that followed the war were difficult ones for him and his otherwise stoic resolve.  He did what he always did and sucked it up and moved through it.  The first great step forward was meeting the true love of his life, Madie Hudson in Whitharral Texas.   After their first encounter she went home and told her sister she’d met the man she was going to marry.  He’d found his salvation.

He worked for a pipeline in east Texas when his first son Tom was born.  Sue followed a couple of years later.   Opportunity came for him to start over in Missouri and so he moved his young family north and built from scratch a new life.  They lived in tiny shacks or at one point a barn.   He worked all the time and saved his money.   When Madie’s family came to visit they asked her what she was doing living in a barn?  But Boots promised her that if she’d stick it out he’d build her a house on some nice land.  It is unclear if he had his entire vision for his future then or if it came to him over time, but he eked out a living and finally was able to purchase a large plot of land that butted up to the Oklahoma boarder.  During the war the government had mined the larger older trees and what was left was underbrush and saplings.   There was a tiny two-room shack with an outhouse surrounded by budding forest upon rocky ground.  Again his family and hers wondered if he’d lost his mind.  What could he do with that forsaken place?  He worked construction by day and built Madie her house by night.   It took him awhile but he built that house practically by himself.  Tom, who was at the time ten years old and ready for serious labor, helped him.  Madie also worked her fingers to the bone to make that vision come true.  Sometimes a curious neighbor (by neighbor I mean a person who lived two miles away) would stop by and help out.  People were like that then.  Plus Boots, an imposing cowboy right out of the movies with his homespun philosophy and strong commonsense approach, made a good first impression that lasted a lifetime.   People automatically respected Boots.  While he was working construction all those years he’d stick around when the plumber would show up and he’d watch him work and ask him questions.  He did this with all the contractors until finally by the time he built his own house he knew how to do it all himself.   For a man with an eighth grade education he was a brilliant engineer.  He could envision something in his mind and make it into reality.  He never understood why no one in his family inherited that ability.   If he set his mind to something consider it done, no matter how ambitious.

When the house was completed Boots built a chicken coup and a milk barn.  He bought some chickens and a milk cow and set about making his property self-sufficient.   He plowed a garden and Madie worked it during the summers.  He called it his garden of life.  He explained how the garden of life sustains us.  Perhaps it was his Choctaw blood but he was a spiritual fellow even when thinking about something as mundane as a garden.  He’d tell Tom how the garden of life needed to have vegetables and things to sustain us but it also needed a watermelon.   And it was also very important to keep the weeds out of your garden.  He meant figuratively and literally.  He also planted roses.   The garden of life needed roses, too.   Tom spent more time with him than almost anybody and was the recipient of much of Boot’s profound wisdom.   They’d be working beside one another, usually for long distances of silence, when all of sudden Boots would straighten up and look off into the distant trees.  He’d sigh and say, “Son…”  And Tom would stop and look up at him.   “Don’t pick other people’s scabs.”  Tom would nod and they’d both go back to work.  Tom would work out what he meant by that and come away with the truth beneath the odd comment.   Everyone has scabs in their life, leave them alone and let them heal.  One of Tom’s many jobs was to herd the cattle up to the barn.  Boots would warn him not to stand behind those cows.  “They’ll kick the devil out of you.”  But sure enough, one day Tom was in a hurry and one kicked him square in the gut.  It knocked him to the ground where he writhed in pain, unable to catch his breath.  Boots walked past him and with his southern drawl said, “Well, I told ya not to get behind ‘em cows.”  Life was a lesson.   Tom didn’t have a curfew in high school.  If he came home late Boots would find something important for them to do at four in the morning.  Do what you want, but be ready to live with the consequences, was his philosophy.   He’d later turn those lessons into personal cards that he would send his children and grandchildren in the mail.   He sent this to his daughter Patty, my mother, when she was an adult with four kids.

“Good Judgment comes from experience, a lot of that comes from bad judgments.  Whenever you see darkness there is an extraordinary opportunity for the light to burn brighter. -Good luck with your back – Dad.”

Boots worked construction and his business partner was an old cowboy from Texas who’d made a lot of money in oil.  His name was Mr. Smith.  One of Boot’s favorite stories to tell was about this colorful man.  Mr. Smith drove an old beat-up pickup truck and wore overalls, looking like a dusty old farmer. The guy from the bank was there and Mr. Smith pulled up in his old truck and looking like he just milked a cow and the banker tried to warn Boots about going into business with that guy.  Boots didn’t say anything but, “Oh-kay,” and the banker told him he’d look into Mr. Smith for him to make sure he wasn’t making a mistake. Boots smiled and let him do the research needed to explain Mr. Smith’s economic status.   The banker came driving up, he jumped out and said, “You definitely should go into business with this guy.  You have any idea how much he’s worth?” Boots just smiled.  He did not believe in putting on heirs.  It was the sign of a weak man to try to impress others with his wealth or style.  “You can send a fool to college but all you’ll get is an educated fool.”

He wore the same denim shirt for as long as I could recall.  I later found out he had several denim shirts that all looked alike.  Cowboys boots, faded blue jeans, denim shirt with snap buttons because he’d cut his thumb off when he was an apprentice in Texas, large white, or slightly yellowed cowboy hat, this was his uniform.

The thumb story is a famous one in the legend of Boots Hodge.  He sliced it off when he was an apprentice in Texas.   The story goes that he sliced it off, picked up the severed piece, drove himself to the hospital but they couldn’t sow it back on and so he stood there calmly, holding the flap of skin against his hand while they stitched him up.   His pain tolerance is a large part of his legend.  He never took pain pills no matter how severe the injury.  It wasn’t that he had dulled nerve endings.  His tolerance came from a stubbornness of the mind, a mental toughness that refused to let pain interfere with his day.  He was so disciplined in everything he did.   He believed in putting off or foregoing gratification for what needed to be done.  He was up at four o’clock every morning and went about working his property all day long with a skip in his step, because he was doing what he loved. 

Eventually Boots grew weary of putting up with the fickle mind of housewives changing their minds with the wind and so he brought home four piglets and from there went into the hog business.  It was here his brilliance and ingenuity would shine.  Tom recalls the first time one of the pigs was giving birth, how it couldn’t handle the pain and chased its rear end around in circles until finally giving birth and killing the baby.   Boots fattened that pig up and sold her for her meat and then favored the pigs who gave birth easily and from there he went from four pigs to four thousand.  He revolutionized the pig farming industry.   He designed his operation in such a clever way so that it would only take Tom and Boots to work the entire thing.   Tom shoveled a lot of hog manure and feed in his young life.  Boots worked out a system for everything; from how the barns where constructed to the alleyways and shoots.  He realized that one of the biggest problems facing pig mortality was newborns being rolled onto by the mothers.  So he designed a trap door in the birthing cages that opened for the baby to fall through into some straw under a heating lamp.   So in the spring when most farmers were bringing three to four new pigs to the market, Boots brought a dozen or more.   He built a cage with two decks for his truck to drive them all to market.   He caught the notice of many people and a few college professors of agriculture came to see the operation and to study it.  He made them change clothes before they could go out there.  He didn’t want them getting his pigs sick.

While they worked extremely hard, Boots took his family on at least one vacation every year.   They’d go to Colorado and Wyoming.   He’d have his nephews, who lived up the road, look after the farm.     All the while his hog business continued to expand.  He built what would later feel like an entire town on his property with various sized barns and outbuildings.  He had it all organized with different sections for pigs recovering from giving birth, to areas for fattening them up, to weaning them.  After he retired from the business, his abandoned pig town turned into a fantasyland for his grandchildren.  It fueled my early imagination and we loved to have all sorts of fantastical adventures out there.  It was a magical place to grow up. For his children they had hundred of acres to ride their horses.  They explored the vast forest.  Boots would say, if you get lost try to find a fence and follow it home.  There was a spring fed pond with an enormous weeping willow tree that they’d swim in on hot summer days. 

When Tom was in high school he came to his dad, seated in his favorite recliner, in the place it would remain for sixty years.  Boots was reading the evening paper and Tom told him he’d like to try football.  Boots didn’t say much, maybe grumbled from behind the paper, peaked over the top and then went back to it.   Tom, feeling a bit rejected, shrugged and left the room.   The next day, when Tom returned from school, Boots handed him a pair of cleats.   He didn’t say anything else.   So Tom went on to try out for the team and he had his butt handed to him by an older boy.  He got pounded all week and began to hate the idea of playing football.   He was later embarrassed to admit that he seriously thought about quitting.  But there were those damned cleats.   Those cleats weren’t in the budget.  Boots had stretched to get them.  He was just starting out in his new pig farming business and things were tight.  Tom stuck it out and eventually, after college, became the football coach in Seneca.  He was by far the most successful coach in the history of that school and in fact one of the top in the entire state of Missouri.  He’s in the Missouri sports hall of fame for coaching.   The stadium in Seneca is named, Tom Hodge Stadium.  In a small southern town, high school football is the NFL.  Boots and his wife Madie collected all the articles written about their son.   They were both extremely proud of him. 

Boots would send Tom, then in high school or when he’d come back for summer break in college, to markets to buy up the runts and they’d bring them back and Boots would shoot them with boosters and fatten them up.  He was always thinking of new ways to improve his operation.    He was at a trade show many years later and saw his invention being demonstrated.  He recognized the guy who claimed the patent as one of the professors who’d visited.  The guy shrugged apologetically, and most likely frightened for his life, but Boots shrugged it off.  The guy said, “I looked and you didn’t have a patent on it, so…”  Boots had made plenty of money off of his invention, he didn’t need the glory for it.  He wasn’t one to hold a grudge.  He’d say, “Don’t waste your time or your money feeding your ego.”

He’d say, “The true measure of a man is how he treats someone who can do him absolutely no good.”  Or “The true measure of a man is how he handles a crisis.”

He was in the hog business for twenty years before debilitating headaches bothered him so much he decided to look into it.  He’d had skin cancer and probably wondered if the constant headaches weren’t something serious.  He never told Madie or his kids when he went to see his doctor but whenever he came back he explained that he was allergic to the pigs’ dander and would be selling them off.   He was going out of the hog business.  It must have been a difficult decision to make.  But Boots sucked it up and made it.  The headaches must have been horrendous for his pain tolerance.   Perhaps they were making him cranky?   He had grandkids by this point.   He doted on them.   He stopped cursing after I began to repeat everything he’d say.  He also stopped drinking.  He was never a hard drinker but he’d have a beer each night; sometimes Jack Daniels.  He gave it up to set an example to his grandchildren.

He often remarked how the ghosts of his war buddies would dance around his bed at night asking what went wrong with the country they died for.  In his mind his generation spoiled their children, because they didn’t want them to have the hard life they’d had, but it made them soft and weak and in turn they produced children even more spoiled and soft.   He foresaw America’s decline from the world’s greatest country to the limp bureaucratic nightmare it is today.  He didn’t think highly of politicians and the government.  He worried about one world government.  He said someday that’ll happen and we’ll all be in trouble.

His retirement plan was based on an idea he’d had perhaps all along; to section off his land into plots and to lease it to people with bad credit or who weren’t able to get loans.   When they would default he’d take the land back, but if they could pay it off then it was theirs.  Few of them did.   His plan is now helping his children in their retirements.  One of his big philosophies was about need versus want.  We only need a few things to sustain us.   The rest is what we want.  He’d say, “No luxury should be purchased with debt. When people tell you they need something, usually they’re confused about what that means.” 

To say a few words for a man who put little stock in words seems ironic.  He said, “No one can talk for more than five minutes without exposing the extent of his ignorance.”  He was a man of action.  He didn’t say I love you.  He showed it.  He wore the toughest exterior of any man I’ve ever known, but beneath that cowboy hat there beat a warm and kind heart.  That man loved his family.   “Kodak would go out of business if it weren’t for our family,” he’d say pointing with his half thumb at all the pictures on his walls.   As he got on in years, he’d say it every time you saw him.  

When his wife got sick he’d carry her up the stairs each night for bed and carry her down again in the morning.  When she was out of it towards the end, he picked her up one afternoon and she looked up at him with love drunk, teenager-eyes, all doughy and she said, “Wanna dance, cowboy?”  And he let her stand on his feet and they swayed back and forth for a moment and then he scooped her up and carried her up those stairs and sat with her until she fell asleep.   A large piece of him died when she did.  But he was too sturdy to show it and he bit his lip and his enormous adam’s apple would quiver and he mustered on.  That was a special time for him and me.  I was living in Joplin, going to school, and every Friday Aunt Sue would take my laundry back to their house, she lived with him, and I’d swing by every Sunday and pick it up and we’d have lunch and talk for an hour or more and then I’d head on down to Neosho to see my parents.  We did this every weekend for a year.  We grew very close.  He’d tell the stories he loved the most.   They usually had multiple meanings and were full of life lessons. 

Boots truly was a living legend, by definition.  He earned the respect of every man he’d encountered.  Boots Hodge.  He was an inspiration, a guide, a cowboy guru.  He was the cowboy John Wayne was pretending to be.   But at the end of the day John Wayne was just Marion Morrison and Grandpa was still Boots Hodge.

“In the battle between the stone and the stream the stream always wins because it’s persistent.” He’d write these nuggets of wisdom in his famous cards.  I don’t know that he came up with all of those himself, if he’d picked them up along the way or what, but he knew the importance of seeing the world in those types of terms.

Here’s a poem they found in this personal things. 

My Self
By Freeman “Boots” Hodge

I have to live with my self, and so
I want to be fit for myself to know,

I want to be able as days go by
Always to look myself straight in the eye,

I don’t want to stand with the setting sun
And hate myself for the things I’ve done

I don’t want to keep on a closet shelf
A lot of secrets about myself,

And Fool myself as I come and go
Into thinking that nobody else will know

The kind of man I really am
I don’t want to dress myself up in Sham

I want to go out with my head erect
I want to deserve all men’s respect

But here in this struggle for fame and pelf
I want to be able to like myself.

I don’t want to think as I come and go
That I’m bluster and bluff and empty show

I never can hide myself from me
I see what others may never see

I know what others may never know
I never can fool myself-and so
Whatever Happens I want to be
Self Respecting and conscience free

Boots


He was a man of extreme reason and intuition.  He lived in a world of logic.  If it didn’t make sense to him, then by God he wouldn’t do it.   And if it was broken, then by God he could fix it.    He did things HIS way.  He said to be happy; you need to be your own boss.  He said, don’t follow the crowd, go your own way.  Find your own path.  He taught us to think for ourselves.   Institutions were generally bad ideas.   The government had no right to tell us what to do.   He wouldn’t wear his seatbelt in the hopes of being pulled over just so he could explain to the cop what he thought about that particular communist law.   He’d say, “I think the seatbelt is the best invention since birth control, but the government has no right to tell a man, who fought for his country, that he HAS to wear it.” 

 He taught us the difference between religion and spirituality.  He didn’t need to go to church every Sunday.  In fact he refused.  He hated preachers.  All but one, a man named Griff, who wasn’t anything like any other preacher we’d ever known.  He was a special case and he earned the respect of Boots as he sat with Madie as she died. 
He was at Boot’s funeral and someone asked Griff if Boots had asked him a lot of tough questions during those times.  “No,” said Griff, “He pretty much just told me stuff.”  

Boots found God sitting on a stump at sunrise on his back forty watching a deer graze in the distance.  The irony to me was that people were always trying to “save” him.   If you were at his funeral and saw the amount of love and adoration being given to that great man, then maybe those folks would have all done better to follow his example.  Who needed to save who?  Was he perfect?  Of course not.  No one is.  Like everyone he was flawed, but that’s what made him who he was.  But damn if he wasn’t a very good human to live up to.  

He was an idol, a legend, a hero to his family and that extended beyond blood.  Boots was very active in the Warrens Branch Community, serving many years on the school board.  He was one of the original founders and leaders of ‘Busy Beavers’ 4-H Club.  He’d host mini rodeos on his land called shodoes. He’d plow the ground to make it softer and the kids would ride calves and horses.  He coached Tom’s baseball team and when they won first place he made it clear he didn’t want his name on that trophy.  It wasn’t about him.  He was a selfless man to the core.

We found the drafts for a few of the cards he’d sent to everyone and I’d like to include this here for posterity.  The following are the words of Boots Hodge to his family.

“Boots-isms”

Tom & Sue
“A hundred years from now, it won’t matter what my bank account was.  The sort of house I lived in, or the kind of car I drove.  But the world may be different because I was important in the life of a child.”

Tom & Merlene
“The most certain sign of wisdom is to make your home a refuge from the rest of the world.”

Sue
“It is loving and giving that make life worth living.
And giving that love to children can make a difference in their life forever.  You can do a great job at that.”
- Have a good day  -Dad

Patty
“Good Judgment comes from experience, a lot of that comes from bad judgments.  Whenever you see darkness there is an extraordinary opportunity for the light to burn brighter. “
-Good luck with your back – Dad

“When you come to the end of your rope tie a knot and hang on.  Everyone gets the same 24 hours in a day, the difference is how you use it.”

Bobbie, Patty & Tera
“Just be yourself and never look back and don’t take life or death too seriously.  Making it in life is kinda like busting bronc’s.  Your going to get thrown a lot, the secret is getting back on.”
-Just an old Cowboys way of looking at it. Grandpa Boots

Pam
“By changing the inner attitudes of their minds, can change the outer aspects of their lives.  Never take the advice of someone who has not had that kind of trouble.”
-I think you have proven that, just be your own person you can’t please everyone. 

“The true measure of a man is how he treats someone who can do him absolutely no good.”

Merlene
“Anyone who says raising kids is not the most difficult job in the world is not doing it right.  Memories are your most valuable possessions.”

Travis
“There is not half the pleasure in processing an object as in the effort to attain it.
Let go of the what-If, don’t put your life on hold. 
Trust your hopes not your fears.
Optimism is a gift
The most certain sign of wisdom is a positive outlook.”

Marcy
“Grab happiness in the passing moments of life and never look back.”

“Never feel lonely in the kitchen, food is very friendly.”

“Treat your kids like you wanted your parents to treat you”

Mark
“Happiness is a byproduct of an effort to make someone else happy.  The most wasted days are the days when we have not laughed.  A happy marriage puts the marriage before the children. Two people loving equally is a rare occurrence.”

Tera
“You’ve got to be original, because if you are like someone else what do they need you for?”

Scott W.
“No matter what kind of backgrounds two men are from, if you go ‘Hey man, women are crazy’ you got a friend”

Josh and Amy
“Love begins in the eyes and quickly goes to the heart, and only sometimes ends up in the brain.” – Boots

Eric
“The greatest conflicts are not between two people but between one person and himself.”

Ryan
“Not everything can be made sense of

Your Eyes are the windows of your soul.

We are sometimes taken into troubled waters not to drown, but to be cleansed. 

Use your memory to make your life more enjoyable. 

Look back at your ancestors for strength; carry a can-do attitude with you. 

Banish the word ‘cannot’ from your vocabulary; every person is born with a talent. 

A good idea is usually risky,

The door to success is always marked ‘Push’

Contentment is worth more than Riches.”

Lacy
“Be afraid only of standing still.  Grab happiness in the passing moments of life.  We are sometimes taken into troubled waters, but not to drown but to learn how to swim.  Sometimes things that hurt-teach skill and confidence are an unconquerable force.  Every person is born with a talent, use it.”

“Don’t be discouraged by your mistakes.  Accept the good and run with it.  Opportunity sometimes knocks very softly.  Surround yourself with things that make you smile.”

Ross
“We are all treasure chests of talents.  In Sights and remarkable gifts we are judged by what we finish, not on what we start.  The secret of success is doing something you love.”

Tayler
“Never grumble, it makes you as welcome as a snake at a picnic.  Its best to keep your troubles pretty much to yourself cause half the people you tell them to won’t give a damn, and the other half will be glad to hear you have them.”

“Follow your hearts’ desire and it will lead you to great adventures.  For when you follow your heart life becomes joyful.”


Britnie
“You must do crazy things once in awhile to keep from going nuts.  Just don’t do anything that conflicts with common sense.  The best advice is don’t give it.”

Hudson
“Hey a true friend will tell you when your hats on backwards, just how did you get so stupid, well maybe it’s the company I keep.”

Hayden
“Its better to have one good friend than many acquaintances.  The most certain sign of wisdom is a positive outlook of a person is defined by what he makes of himself during his lifetime.”

Charlie
“Most folks are like a bob-wire fence.  They have their good points.  Nobody ever drowns himself in his own sweat.  Never joke with mules or cooks as they have no sense of humor.”

More….

“Today you don’t have to lift a finger, you are royalty, the hero of the day.  You don’t know about war, poverty or disease, you only know love, enjoy the moment.”
-Grandpa Boots

“If you have a loving family its amazing what you can do without.”

“Don’t pet a porcupine unless you are looking for trouble.  Life is an emotional journey.”

“No luxury should be purchased with debt”

“Never sacrifice your principles to please anyone”

“Aim at fulfilling whatever talents you have inherited.”

“Having an education is different than having plain ol’ horse sense.”

“You can ruin the present by worrying about the future”
“A stumble may prevent a fall.  Don’t put your life on hold”

“Trust your hopes not your fears”

“Just be yourself and never look back, and don’t take life or death too seriously.  Love all, trust a few, do wrong to none, your eyes are the windows to your soul.”

“Knowledge is a precious treasure that cannot be given away nor stolen.”

“After you climb to the top of the wall don’t kick over the ladder”

“Good fortune is usually the result of wisdom and hard work, not luck.”

“Optimism is a gift”

“There is no security on this earth only opportunity”

“Its no disgrace to fall down, the disgrace is not getting up and going ahead.”

“The best way to make your dreams come true is to wake up”

“An imagination can make reality more joy able”

“Its easier to accept love than to give it”

“Wisdom is sometimes disguised as foolishness”

“Don’t waste your time or your money feeding your ego”

“Just remember don’t pursue happiness, create it.”

“Kids need more hugs than they need things.”

“The greater the obstacles the more glory in over coming it.”
“You can never go wrong when you follow your dreams.”

“Never play leap frog with the unicorn”

“Never pet a porcupine.

If you carry yourself like a beauty people will think of you as one.”

“You can never step in the same river twice you can just about always stand more than you think you can.”

“No one can talk for more than five minutes without exposing the extent of his ignorance.”

“Watch what happens to a wagon when one wheel comes off”

“A good reputation cannot be bought for any amount of money”

“Intelligence is not enough, using intelligence wisely is the key”

“Respect yourself and others will respect you.”

“Happiness comes from a persons character”

“The squeaky wheel will be the first to get the grease, but if it keeps on squeakin’, it’ll be the first one to be replaced.”







Wednesday, January 28, 2015

Mythology


ON MYTHOLOGY
A study conducted on Catholic nuns and Buddhist monks, revealed that when individuals are in a state of concentrated meditation and prayer the neurons stop firing in the parietal lobe of the brain; the area responsible for spatial orientation and physical awareness.  Another study showed that when individuals suffer from temporal lobe seizures and also others who have had that region of the brain stimulated using electrodes produce sensations that are considered intense religious euphoria or experience.  Atheists look at that and interpret it as proof that there is nothing spiritual going on at all.  “There you go.”   But I’m not devout to anything yet and so I say simply, “I don’t know…”   But for me some interesting questions arise for the thought experiment; do we remove a portion of our ego when we turn off the region that is aware of our physical body?  Isn’t it our egos that have fooled us into thinking we’re individuals separate from the universe in the first place?  Does that portion of the physical brain naturally block or impede our true connection with the universal consciousness?  Is the parietal lobe our anchor to the physical realm?  Or is it all electricity and energy distribution?  Is it all in our heads?  I struggle with this debate all the time. 
There have been other studies that suppose our brains naturally need to impose order to everything; that we need to understand everything as having a cause-effect relationship.  We simply can’t accept chaos.  Things cannot happen randomly. 
I’m currently enrolled in a mythology class.  The semester just began and the second chapter in the book looks at the origins of myth.  Where do they come from?  The book breaks down several competing theories.  There’s the Archaic view that basically says that, to the ancient Greeks, myths were substitutions for history and theology, but also offered examples of heroic actions that promoted certain courageous standards for not only their citizens but their leaders as well.  There were “externalist” theories that state that myths were a prescientific attempt to explain natural phenomena.   Some believe that myths derived from explanations for certain ancient rituals and customs; as justifications.
The “internalists” view myth like Sigmund Freud and Carl Jung did, as stemming from our subconscious; that they are expressions of the human mind.   Jung had his mythological archetypes. 
My friend Matt Savage wonders if myths were actually viewed as fiction but accepted and celebrated as holding universal truths worthy of veneration.  He likened it to Harry Potter or Star Wars.  We know these stories are fiction but we celebrate them as our modern mythology.
There was the Hellenistic theory that supposed that the ancient gods were based on leaders from the distant past whose exploits had been so exaggerated over time that they took on divine qualities.    I like this theory for reasons I’m unaware of other than it supports my theory on the Biblical stories and oral tradition.  I compare it to the game of telephone.  Each time the story is told to the next person it takes on a subtle but important variation.  But over thousands of years those variations have grown to the point that what’s left is nearly a completely different tale.   But boiled down and below them there was once some truth to them. 
That leads into a section I found to be missing from the text book; the Ancient Alien Theory.  A kid seated behind me brought it up in class.  As much as I don’t trust the Ancient Alien theory its hard to watch the so-called History Channel and not come away with at least a few more questions than you have answers on that subject.  The idea is that mythology comes from the ancients’ misunderstanding of technology well beyond their wildest imaginations and so the aliens became gods.
A competing theory to the aliens is the ancient demonic theory.  This one I’ve employed in a series of books that have yet to be completed, but that I started over ten years ago.  The idea is that the ancient gods were actually powerful demons that corrupted and subverted the truth and tricked ancient man into worshipping them.  The idea that the act of being worshipped made them extremely powerful makes more sense to me as far as their motives are concerned, than the ancient aliens needing to create a race of workers to build the pyramids.  What also makes the ancient demon theory such an intriguing one to me is how these pagan gods influenced history all the way into our modern world.   Think about Christianity’s relationship with the pagans.  Constantine wasn’t the Christian saint they’ve made him out to be.  He was still a pagan worshipper long after he legitimized Christianity.  But what people don’t realize is that he corrupted the faith and from that moment forward the pagan’s controlled it.  When Rome took over Christianity it no longer belonged to the pure of heart.   They stepped into the shadows, these demon gods, but they never left.  And plenty of evil was done in the name of the church.   According to the theory, that evil was orchestrated by these demonic forces, to be carried out under the false name of God.  Why does the Vatican have an ancient Egyptian monolith in its courtyard? 
The idea that for thousands of years mankind made blood sacrifices to these demons, which we know from the stories weren’t shining examples of morality.  Zeus raped a lot of virgins.   The conspiracy folks will say these pagan demons are still at work in our world today, whispering into ears if not making straightforward deals with extremely powerful people.   If you want to lose your mind look into pop music and hidden symbolism throughout it.  It will make your hair curl.   
But I have to leave it with the understanding that I don’t claim to have any answers only questions.  I see patterns in things, but then again that’s what all of our brains do automatically.   We look for and some times fill-in patterns everywhere we look.  But sometimes the patterns fit and tell us things.

Monday, April 28, 2014

Is the Universe a Super-Organism?


On Super-Organisms

 I keep coming across people who say things that suggest they are open to a new interpretation of spirituality.  I’m watching my generation stepping into the seats of power and influence, slowly but surely, and the world changing to reflect our more open minded take on reality.

I keep coming across the elusive theory I often refer to in the voices of my fellows.  It has yet to have a name.  It questions more than it answers.  But, a lot of us are no longer willing to accept the old models of religion, but are not yet willing to give in to the dogmatic conviction that there is nothing beyond the human experience.   We can see the convergence of science and spirituality.  I think a staunch atheist is just as closed minded as a far-right-winged, bible-thumping literalist.  To assume you understand all the mysteries of the cosmos is a bit narrow in scope, no?  Some of my best friends are atheist and to them I mean no disrespect.  I think if it comforts them not to believe in anything beyond the chemical reactions of the brain, then so be it. 

I prefer to muse on the idea that the cosmos has the possibility of being an enormous super-organism, just as the human body is a complex system of smaller components.

We start with the question: What does it mean to be alive? It’s all about the flow of energy.  Energy resources drive complex systems.  Well the universe has energy flowing throughout it.   It’s hard to think in terms that grand, but take comfort in knowing that there are patterns in everything.   They repeat on all levels, from quantum to multiversal.

According to Wikipedia:  Any contiguous living system is called an organism.  Organisms undergo metabolism, maintain homeostasis, can grow, respond to stimuli, reproduce and, through natural selection, adapt to their environment in successive generations.

So you might say, well, the universe doesn’t do all those things.  How do you know?  You have to look in terms of the concept of there being multiple universes to begin to see how this may be happening.  The idea is that this universe is the clone or spawn of an older universe, which was the spawn of an even older universe.  According to many leading scientists today there are countless universes in the sea that is called the multiverse.  And we used to worry about feeling insignificant when we imagined that the sun didn’t revolve around the earth.  But realize that we are not removed from this system but are very much a part of it.  Why would the patterns cease to exist the larger you get in scale?   Could each universe be like a cell inside of a larger super-organism?  The cells divide just like they do in living organisms on earth.  The universes could be evolving and natural selection could be rewarding those that are more hospitable to create life and new universes.  Blackholes could be the spawning grounds of new universes.

Someone might say, what does that do to the concept of God?  It makes God infinitely greater and many times more vast and complex.  What does that do the idea of you as an individual?  It suggests that it doesn’t stop with you.  You can believe that you are made up of tiny particles that have come together as a complex system to make you.  But then we think that’s the end of the line for complex systems?  But what if you’re not the highest beings in the universe?  What if we are all tiny components in a larger complex system?  We think we’re individuals but really we’re not.   We’re all connected in this way, coming together to make something greater and more complex than ourselves, just as the cells in our bodies do, or the atoms of the cells and so forth.

There has been a lot of research done lately on the idea of there being a “collective consciousness” or a “unified field of consciousness” surrounding this planet.  In 1980 Princeton Engineering Anomalies Research (PEAR) lab began to study how focused group intention and attention brought order to random computer output. Random-number-generating (RNG) computers have suggested strongly the existence of a collective consciousness.  In 1995, for example, Roger Nelson and Dean Radin began researching similar effects that occurred when mass attention was captured by events like the O.J. Simpson trial.  The research shows that romantic couples working together can affect the RGNs six times as much as individuals.  Suggesting love binds us together and makes us even stronger as something else beyond our individualities.  Global events that capture our attention collectively have powerful sway on the RGNs that are in place in various locations on the planet.  9/11 had a tremendous effect on the random-numbers-generating computers.  There has been much more independent research done on the subject.  Feel free to research it for yourselves.  The idea is that collective consciousness is a mode of awareness that emerges at the first transpersonal stage of consciousness, when our identities expand beyond our egos.  We intuitively can sense and work with the interactions between our and other’s energy fields, physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually.  This projection of emotions and thoughts is a real phenomenon, just ask anyone who is afraid of horses or dogs.  These animals are well aware of our emotions, because we project them. The theory suggests that consciousness has the ability to exist beyond the constraints of space and time.  And it suggests that our individual consciousness has a part to play in the larger more complex system as one collective hive mind that surrounds the earth.  The idea is then carried on to the galaxy and the clusters of galaxies all the way to the universe and the multiverse.  The basic patterns don’t break down the larger you get.  They too expand and form an even larger complex system called the super-organism.

Could that be what the Bible was talking about when it said God created man in “their” own image?   God is not a Him but an Us.  In that we are all particles of God.  Our egos have convinced us that we are individuals, separate from the divine.  Could it be we are part of a chain, connected somewhere along the way, in an infinitely immense system?

I sure don’t know.  Do you?