Utopia - Social Audit, part one.

On Utopia? 

CHAPTER ONE

1. Maintain humanity under five hundred million in perpetual balance with    nature. 2. Guide reproduction wisely – improving fitness and diversity…”

--Georgia Guidestones, Elbert County, Georgia, USA.

Five hundred million souls.  No more.
“Back in my day, before that damned, fake, alien attack, right, global warming was hot boxing this planet, kids.  Literally.”  Though he appeared a middle-aged man, with an occasional grey dusting on an otherwise thick head of dark blonde hair, Grandpa Jax was quite old; three hundred and fifty-one years old to be exact.   In being old, he was avowed to redundancy, as though he’d run out of new things to say, but still liked the sound of his own voice.  And so it was a speech the family had endured for over three hundred years, often delivered during times, such as this particular autumn evening, when the youthful old man was feeling long jawed.  Most of his brood nodded and continued to consume their sumptuous Sunday feast, unphased.  They were being served impeccably by their personal robots of varying makes and models; reflections of the individuality of each master.
“Ice caps were melting, animals were vanishing, earthquakes leveled third world cities, and violent storms raged over the seas and land.  Now this was all thanks to human greed and over-population, right?”  Grandpa Jax glanced around the long table at his uninterested progeny, gathered in his ornate dining hall.  His steel-blue eyes burned with a passion that he’d inherited from his renowned father; a very famous Hollywood actor in the time before the Great Galactic Massacre; GGM.
“So, while one percent of the population controlled ninety-nine percent of the wealth, the rest of the billions of people squandered in debt.  And these wealthy white dudes, right, this one percent, whose bloodlines could be traced back to the ancient kings of Europe, and even supposedly all the way back to the Pharaohs of ancient Egypt, used their money to buy the politicians and in-turn the world’s governments.  They controlled everything that transpired on this spinning clump of rock.   And they trumped up a world wide debt crisis so nasty that their banks had to bail out the entire global economy, right?  We should have been worried when Apple and Google merged and then swallowed Wal-Mart.  But we were all distracted binge watching TV shows on Netflix.
“Companies became too big to fail.   The Supreme Court allowed corporations to act as individuals and basically buy politicians.  And through back-room, corporate takeovers, mergers, and shady banking schemes the world’s economy ended up in the hands of only one huge conglomeration.  In the end, kids, this single corporation owned the whole world.”  It was during these fits of sanctimonious melancholy, when he’d had his fourth glass of wine, or smoked an entire joint by himself, Grandpa Jax felt the need to implant his version of history on the rest of his clan; the Pitt-Howard Family.  It was an attempt to quell the guilt he felt for having survived the massacre of the dark and the poor, as his betters would unceremoniously refer to it.  Some of the purer bloodlines would say the aliens did Earth and mankind a great favor by eliminating the weaker “sheeple” or “feeders” as they were referred to.  According to the Ancient Alien theorists it was what they’d done at the end of the last ice age as well, when they’d cleared Europe and therefore the world of the Neanderthals, to make way for humans.  You can’t check these facts because its all been deleted from the cloud, but it’s true.  They used this powerful weapon called HARP to unleash concentrated bursts of radiation, from the upper ionosphere.  Right?  That’s what those aliens’ ray guns really were.  It was an inside job.”
Grandma Sophia grinned away her silent rebuttal and pecked at her salad of mixed greens, freshly picked by robotic hands from the family gardens.  Of those gathered, she’d suffered the conspiracy rant the longest.  But unlike the others, she’d lived through the actual events.  She knew there were things he’d say that possibly held water, but she never believed the aliens were faked.  Grandpa would often say she was perfectly brain washed.  But she’d seen the mother ship above Los Angeles with her own eyes.  She saw the one over Denver as well.
“Those space ships were holograms,” Grandpa Jax said, anticipating her counter.  They’d known each other far too long.
“What was real was that those fake alien ships killed six and a half billion people, Mother.  Wiped the poor bastard’s off the face of the earth.  I had adopted African brothers and sisters!”  Grandpa slammed his fist on the table, rattling the fine silverware and China.  It was hard to tell if the outbreak was part of the act.  Grandpa Jax had also been a famous actor; the son of Hollywood’s most famous power-couple.  On his mother’s side, he was a third generation thespian and so it was embedded in his DNA.
“Of course, us select, fine bred, rich folks, the one-percenters, were sent to the secret bunkers to wait out the attack, right?  We spent over a year down there, kids, in these underground towns.  It was rumored that the corporate lords had made a deal with the aliens.  That was another conspiracy theory, but I say there weren’t any aliens to begin with, so it’s moot.  They even set that shit up, man.   Back before it all went down, for years on TV they’d show all these shows about aliens and how they were secretly watching us.  They were preparing us for the idea, so that when they did it, we’d believe them.  There was one show called Ancient Aliens, and now that show’s basic concept is a commonly accepted theory.  It was all bullshit.”  Grandpa stared at the back of his hand.  It should’ve been wrinkled and withered, this he knew instinctively, but it wasn’t.  His skin was tight and elastic.  What a world this is, he thought.  It just keeps going…
“So…” began Grandma Sophia, thinking he’d wound himself back down.  But she was mistaken.  And before she could alter the direction of the conversation with another word, he’d taken back up the posture of the man on stage, with his hands flourishing and fingers wagging.  She’d been away for a lot of years, traveling the world, visiting her son on the moon, even spending a good deal of time in India.  She’d forgotten how the old man could perambulate himself into such a passion.  He reminded her of a small, nippy dog, furiously humping the leg of an overly polite house guest.  She vowed to leave again, soon after her grandsons’ birthday party was over.  They were twins.  They were turning three hundred.
“And eventually we were able to come back out top side.  Let me tell you, guys, it was not nice to see…even worse to smell.  The decay.  The rot.  Just bodies and debris.  The only people left were those of us who had been invited to the bunkers under the Denver airport and other top secret locations in the various mountains around the world.  And we inherited it all, man, take as much as you want, you know, on account of everyone’s distant relatives being dead.  Oh, no body inherited that property?  I’ll take it.  Thanks.”  A loud snap of burning wood, from the enormous, marble fireplace behind him, added to the effect.
“It was something.  And then there were some hard years where everybody went back to the land of their forefathers, the places we inherited, and we sort of fended for ourselves for the first couple of years before things got going again.  Over time, nature came back to take what was rightfully hers, though.  That was the first positive thing that everyone began to post.  The water was cleansed by the natural earth and she was healed and restored to her pristine health, and everyone rejoiced.   Yay!  There were alien cults that sprang up.  People worshipped them.  Eventually the church of the alien god Baphomet became the dominant religion.  He demanded blood sacrifice and so a race of mindless clones were created to serve as sacrificial infants. Oh, and guess what, kids, Baphomet isn’t an alien god-king from another planet, he’s a god dammed powerful demon from a higher dimension.  But that’s another discussion.” Grandpa made the ancient, forbidden sign of the cross to ward off evil.
“So, when the clean up was done and the lights were turned back on, we all rebuilt.  The corporation was up and running again and in some way, shape or form, we all worked for it.  But after a little while the illusion of money became exposed and we all realized we didn’t need it.  There were plenty of resources to be had by everyone, right.  And that’s the second positive thing people began to post on the cloud.  We all sort of agreed to end the illusion of money.”  He grinned and his reddish brown beard spread open for his mouth. 
“That’s about the time the robots came to replace labor, when the money became unnecessary and totally obsolete.  Everyone retired to do what ever they desired, and that was the final positive spin that was needed to make us forget all about those angry aliens. Thank our Lord, the CEO, the great and wise Emperor Pope of the Earth, Lord Rothschild, crowned and anointed by the alien god Baphomet himself in the Galactic Peace Treaty.  
“As long as we agreed to control our own numbers and be good stewards of the earth we would be allowed to keep it.  And they all spun it as this utopian society; the dawn of the greatest age of man.  So they released the real medicines, right?  They implanted us survivors with these nanobots that float around our blood streams and cure every possible disease, including the disease of aging.  People used to get sick and old.  You don’t understand that, you kids.  Now, they’ve rejuvenated us all to our primes…” Grandpa paused for effect.  His eyes appeared glassy and feral.  He scanned the room for a face he could connect with.  All of them avoided him, but J, his two hundred and eighty-five year old grandson, his youngest heir.  J grinned down the table at the old man as though he thoroughly enjoyed the performance.
His cousin T, seated across from him, held his eyes on his plate, concentrating on his thick cut of prime rib.   It was hard to tell if he was genuinely fixated on his meat or was simply not interested in engaging the old man.
For T, it was, of course, the latter.   T knew that by making eye contact, Grandpa would zero in and then spend the remainder of the evening following him from drawing room to parlor, with encore after encore of his favorite performance, loosely titled; The Great Alien Conspiracy Theory.
“See, then here comes the catch.  They sterilized everyone so that the only way anyone can get pregnant is through licensed, artificial insemination, which they control, and it can only happen if someone registered in the region dies; which almost never happens naturally.
“The only reason why Grandma and I were spared in the first place was because we made for good breeders.  Bottom line.  And this is the unspoken truth about our perfectly balanced utopia,” Grandpa said to J.

TO BE CONTINUED…

 

The History of Religion

On History

Twelve Apostles took the teachings of Christ to the people and formed the early Christian Church.   The simple message of ‘do unto others as you would have done to you, love God and your neighbors,’ spread like a prairie fire across the Mediterranean.  It upset the powers that were.  It under-minded their ability to control people by way of religion.  First the Jews and then the Romans persecuted the early Christians.  They tried to destroy the rising religion.  By the year 300 it had gotten too imbedded into the culture to contain.  So Constantine I issued the edict of toleration in 313.  He made religious tolerance a law.  That was for ALL religions.  Though, he claimed he’d had a vision of a cross in the sky before riding into a successful battle.  It was with the symbol of the cross that he retook Rome and claimed his empire.  Despite claims he converted to Christianity, there is a lot of evidence that he still held true to his pagan beliefs.  He certainly didn’t practice Christianity primarily as the Arch of Constantine is decorated with images of the pagan goddess Victoria.  Sacrifices were made to the gods like Diana, Hercules and Apollo on its dedication, which took place after his conversion.  There is no Christian symbolism on the Arch.  His coinage continued to carry the symbols of the sun god, long after his supposed conversion to Christianity.  When he dedicated his new city Constantinople he did so wearing the Apollonian sun-rayed Diadem.  The sign of the cross was not present.  However, despite this, in the year 325 Constantine called together the First Council of Nicaea.  It was the first in a series of councils which sought to define and contain the theology of the faith.  Constantine set out to establish orthodoxy to unite his empire, to eliminate debate and dissention.  The Romans sought to control Christianity and to use it as a tool to bring the two halves of their empire back together and to once again control the people by way of religion.  They organized it to resemble the Roman army; with Cardinals as generals and the Pope as Emperor.  They rejected books and teachings that were not in line with their intents.  Books that suggested the way to find God started from within the individual first and grew outwardly were thrown out.  Certain apocryphal teachings of Jesus Christ were rejected for not being in-line with the Roman structure.

There’s a popular theory that suggests that the early pagan gods were actually demons who revealed themselves to man and attained power through worship and veneration.  They demanded blood rituals for it gave them more essence and strength.

So, a pagan steered the Church in his desired direction.  Christianity in its purest form was meant to end the worship of these demonic forces, and it did in the beginning.  Overall it succeeded because not very many people today worship the pagan pantheon.  However, behind the scenes the Roman controlled Catholic Church made the Pope the true king of Europe for nearly two thousand years. Power and greed ruled the world.  Many dark and sinister things were done in the name of the Catholic Church.  We call it the Dark Ages.  The suppression of mankind took place under early Christian rule.  Witch trials and Crusades, acts of sadistic torture, as well as countless other examples of evil deeds were done under the guise of Christianity.  Heretics were burned at the stake.  What part of Jesus Christ’s personality did they take that from?  What part suggested it was okay to burn someone alive if they didn’t believe.  “Oh, you don’t agree with me?  Well, then you can just burn to death!”

The Bible is a series of books brought together.  It’s what the word means.  The Bible was brought together by the Romans.  The books they kept were very good books, written with good intention, full of beautiful metaphors, and crafty symbolism but they presented only a glimpse of all the teachings of Christ and the ideas that had come about after his death.  Gnostic Christians held to a different interpretation of Christ’s teachings all together.  They said you didn’t need a priest to find God.  They believed in reincarnation.  This wouldn’t do for the Romans who needed the individual to need the church in order to find salvation.   Tithe! Tithe!  Tithe, or you are going to be tortured for eternity in HELL!  Rule by fear!  What is fear but a negative emotion?  Negative emotions have a lower frequency.  They come from the evil side of the universe.  Love and compassion vibrate with the highest of frequencies and can only lift us upward.

Martin Luther as well as a few others brought about the Reformation, because they knew instinctively that something wasn’t quite right with the way the religion was being conducted.  They brought about the Protestant Reformation that would divide Europe and become deeply entangled with political struggles for centuries.  The Renaissance brought about even more change and the light was brought back out to once again shine away some of the darkness that had entrenched itself into the culture.  Because there was enough of the truth out there to do that; but just enough to keep darkness lurking in the shadows, waiting for a chance to take back some of the control.  The Age of Enlightenment and the Scientific Revolution further pushed us onward toward the light.  But the old guard fought against this with all its might.  Science is from the devil!   Wars were fought to bring the wicked back to the fold. 

But as long as fear remains as part of the faith (directly, the fear of sinning and being punished for breaking the laws of the church, and ultimately going to hell), then the darkness has a foothold in the church.  Men created those laws.  People don’t need them.  A recent study at Yale showed that babies are born with the ability to know right from wrong.  It’s not taught, it’s instinctual.  Why is that?

I had a very interesting conversation on Facebook with a friend that went on for a couple of days.  He posted something I found very interesting.  It was the genealogical list of names from Adam to Noah, translated into English from their Hebrew roots. 

Adam – Man

Seth – Appointed
Enosh – Mortal
Kenan – Sorrow
Mahalalel – The Blessed God
Jared – Shall come down
Enoch – Teaching
Methuselah – His death shall bring
Lamech – The Despairing
Noah – Rest, or comfort.

“Man is appointed mortal sorrow.  The Blessed God shall come down teaching.  His death shall bring the despairing rest, or comfort.”

I thought about that and how the writers of the ancient books were very clever and perhaps there was some ancient magic or mysticism or true prophecy written into the bible.  Certainly there were wonderful metaphors written therein.  Then he went on to post that Moses wrote the Torah and how he had written it three thousand years ahead of Christ’s birth.   It was the statement about Moses having written the Torah that struck me and took my mind from the original thought.  So I asked him why we believe Moses wrote the Torah himself.   He explained that the first book of Moses is called Genesis.  But my argument is that Tom Sawyer wasn’t written by Tom Sawyer.  And Moses didn’t make it to the promise land.  His people did, but he himself died in the desert.  So when would he have had time to write the Torah?  They were moving around the desert.  Maybe he did it at night in his tent?  I guess he might have.  But that led to a much broader conversation about the literal interpretation of the Bible as opposed to a metaphoric one.  He claimed at first that he did take the Bible completely literally.  That surprised me.  I asked him about Noah’s Ark.  I explained that there are over five thousand different species of mammals alone on the earth.  Did he really think Noah saved every living animal that exists today on a giant boat?  That story existed before the Bible in several cultures, suggesting that something did happen.  The problem is the stories vary to fit into the culture telling it.  The Epic of Gilgamesh tells of Gilgamesh building a boat to save all the animals in Mesopotamia. It is an older account of Noah’s flood.  So we believe the newer version of the story, told even further from the original event?  Hasn’t anyone ever played telephone before?  You know how that turns out, right?

The fact that so many cultures have a flood story suggests to me that there was a civilization on earth before the end of the Ice Age.  It was global and advanced.  Then something happened that changed the landscape of the earth in a very small amount of time.  In 1901, they discovered a solidly frozen mammoth in Siberia with remnants of fresh summer flowers and vegetation in its stomach.  Like it went from a summer day to a deep freeze in a matter of minutes.  One theory is that a comet or meteor crashed into the ice sheets over the Hudson Bay and shook the earth off its previous axis.   It was a great apocalypse. The sea faring, global civilization lived off the ocean and most of their cities were along the coastlines. Off of Japan and India there are ruins of enormous structures that were not exposed above the ocean since the end of the Ice Age.  There are supposedly ruins beneath the Caribbean Sea as well.  These were all inundated and submerged in a matter of days if not instantly by tidal waves hundreds of feet tall.  The few people who managed to survive went to higher ground, some on boats, and waited out the shifting and settling of the earth.  They had to learn to survive again.  They’d lost everything.  They were relegated to living off the land and hunting and gathering again.  They told the stories to their children’s children and the story changed to fit the culture telling it.  New civilizations came to be.  The stories came down to the Hebrews and someone, maybe Moses wrote it down as Noah’s Ark among the other creation stories.

There are several other, older versions of Bible stories in Samaria and Egypt as well.  It is important to understand that men wrote the books of the Bible.  They could have been channeling the collective consciousness of the universe but they were interpreting this knowledge through their very limited and superstitious human brains.  It is why when you look close enough you’ll see the inconsistencies and why people over the centuries have had to adjust and interpret the Bible to fit their dogma.   “Well, what Paul is actually saying here is…” (add some preacher’s ideas.)

I think it’s possible for the Bible to be a place of solace and peace, to help guide lives, because people are seeking God in the pages.  But God, if you believe in God, is everything in the universe, and if you believe the theories, the multiverse as well is all part of a larger system that we too are part of, down to the strings that connect everything at the smallest scale of our universe.  They are all God.  So if you seek God anywhere you will find Him, or It, because He’s already there.  Some find God in nature.  It’s why religions can act as divine roads, because if you seek you will find.  It doesn’t matter what religion it is.  Some are more restrictive than others, however, but somewhere there will be a glimmer of truth behind it, just obscured by superstitious dogma and human folly.  But if you seek God because you are afraid to die and end up in hell, then you are heading the wrong direction. 

This is where we always say you have to have faith.  But what exactly are you basing your faith on?  That’s an important question.  If you base all your faith on the Bible, the one put together by a pagan Emperor, then what are you basing your faith really on?  Sand?  You can be shown that God didn’t personally write the Bible.  We know the stories come from older stories and have been changed to fit a larger story line.  What’s wrong with trusting God is everything and everywhere and that by vibrating with a higher frequency and radiating love, that we are serving His will, which is harmony?  Being positive and giving to others, showing compassion and not promoting fear and hate is walking with God.  Why do people need to take the Bible literally?  It’s like a life-preserver for most; they cling to it to stay afloat spiritually.  But I’d suggest learning to swim would be a better way.

I once had a conversation with a guy who was studying to become a preacher.  I asked him about the dinosaurs and the age of the earth.   He believed the earth was only four thousand years old and that the devil put those dinosaur bones out in the desert to fool mankind.   He needed to believe that or his whole faith would collapse.  That’s fragile faith.  There’s a lot more going on in the universe than we will ever really know.  Keep that in mind.  So making your faith brittle and stiff, restrictive, leaves it easily to be broken by the next new discovery.

 

Storytelling

ON AUTOBIOGRAPHY AND STORYTELLING

 My grandfather didn’t speak often of the war.  The few times he’d reference it there would be this sentence attached:  “A dozen guys could march through the same jungle and when they come out the other side, there’d be a dozen different versions of what happened in that there jungle.” 

Because I enjoy seeing the world a certain way, I saw it as a sign, of course.  Two people brought this subject to the forefront this week; one a very good friend and the other my cousin.  Both are very intelligent men, who I have great respect for.  My cousin is the smartest guy I know, and I’ve known a lot of smart people.  He suggested we recreate our past to justify our reality or our present version of it. 

With that in mind; how reliable is any autobiography or supposed true story?  It’s always going to be skewed and one dimensional.  So what is reality and how dependable are we to discern it?

We only see a small portion of the light spectrum and can only hear a set frequency of sound waves.  That means there’s a lot we’re missing.  It’s for this reason I don’t like to rule anything out as being impossible; unless of course it has been proven.  We’re so arrogant to think we have all the answers.

I remember being on a baseball team as a child and the pitcher was the coach’s son.  He was an awful pitcher.   I remember one game he walked several runs in before a kid hit one over the fence for a grand slam.  After the game the coach yelled at us.  “Johnny can’t do it all himself.”  I remember being outraged.  He just did.  The experience stood out to me.  That guy really believed that his son wasn’t to blame for the game being stopped by the ten run rule.  He walked the entire team in.  How was it any one else’s fault but Johnny’s?

People see the world subjectively.  They see it how they want to see it, or expect to see it.  They recreate the past to fit the present.  What really happened?  How many factors are you missing in describing a situation from the past?  Every story, myth, legend, historical account that’s ever been told has been subject to this fact.  How can we take anything as being the truth?  It’s only the truth to us if we think it is.   These are the kinds of thoughts that keep me distracted. 

Even our memories aren’t the originals.   We are remembering the memory of the memory of the event as lastly stored in our long term memories, not the actual event.  Each time we remember something, we only remember certain details and we imagine the rest.  The imagined parts become part of the greater narrative that is the memory.  So the next time we tell it, we won’t even remember what parts we made up and what parts really happened.  Each time we retell a story, tiny details shift and alter and the emphasis on one theme or another gains importance.  A story can one time be a funny yarn about how wild and crazy you were as a young man and later that story could be a cautionary tale.  Every time you hear or read a story you should take this into account.  Did Johnny really give up a grand slam to end the game?  I don’t know.  I remember the coach yelling at us.  I remember us all taking a knee behind the dug out.  Then I remember a snow cone.  That’s it.  The story has become my focal point of why you can’t rely on people’s account of events.  I saw it first hand and made that connection at that moment.  Or did I?  Who knows?

It makes me think of the double slit experiment in quantum physics.  It suggests reality acts one way when no one’s observing it and another way when there is an observer.  Google it if you’re not familiar with it.  May I suggest there’s a lot more going on than we know at this point.  The more we learn the less we know.  Now to clarify that, it should be, the more we learn the more questions we give birth to.  The danger is trying to act like we know anything at all.  We just have theories.  That’s all.  Now, I know that terrifies a lot of people.  They gain great comfort in thinking that what they believe is the actual truth and they’ve found it and it’s all going to be okay.  They leave all those looming questions to someone else.  But deep inside, we all should know that stories aren’t one hundred percent reliable, especially ones from the ancient past.  Could there be ancient, divine magic woven into sacred tales?  I won’t rule it out, of course, that’s not my style.  That comes down to faith.  I respect people of faith.  But as far as being historically one hundred percent accurate, of course they are not.  They are subjective tales told by humans who were victims of the imagined memories they’d come to believe.

My cousin suggested how we see a moment from the past will depend on how good the future is to us.  People blame their horrible childhood for how bad their present is.

Throughout history we’ve always relied on people’s subjective view of the past.  But in the future we’ll be able to pull up any moment and examine it for how it really transpired.  Of course, as we’ve seen with “Reality TV” the records can be edited in such a way as to paint a different reality as well.   If everything is recorded in the future, they still won’t be able to read the minds of the people involved.  Oh, wait.  They’re working on programs to read thoughts as we speak.  What happens when the robots can read our minds, man?  We’re totally screwed then, bro.  Everyone’s going to have ocular implants that will display information at all times while recording what they see and hear every second of the day.  So if you wanted to remember something, you’d simply replay it.   Our brains will shift.  We won’t need to use our memories for the same reasons.  We won’t need to learn things the same way.  I wonder if we’ll lose something fundamentally human in the process.  Is it that filling in of the gaps that we all do when attempting to recall the past that makes us who we are?

I think there’s something to be said for this.  There’s the art of storytelling.  We should then take all storytelling as being a subjective form of art and enjoy the metaphors.  We, as subjective storytellers, weave patterns into our tales to give them meaning.  We aren’t reporting on exactly what happened, because that’s impossible without technology.  So here’s to the art of storytelling!  Here’s to the human experience.  And damn those mind-reading robots!

Karhythms and Coincidences. Part Two

On Karhythms and Coincidence.  Part Two

In the summer of 1999, I met my future wife.  She was running with her group of like minded friends.  Her band.  One of them, a guy named Craig, worked with Shad, the guitarist in our group at an Italian restaurant, in the Gold Coast of all places.  It was one block from my first apartment.   Craig and Shad became instant friends.   Shad was playing his music in bars and Craig became one of his earliest champions, outside of the Joplin crew.  I’d seen her once at one of Shad’s shows.  She was seated at the end of the bar, watching him attentively and clapping after each song.  Later, Craig told Shad that his friend, that hot girl at the bar, really liked Shad’s music, that she was a fan.  I remember remarking that she was really attractive and that was a good sign for future fans.  I don’t know why I’d thought that.  Pretty girls attracted more guys, I guess.  But I remember being envious of his ability to attract women with his music.  I wished desperately that I would have studied music.  I still do.  (Of course for different reasons.)  One night Craig brought the girl in question, the first female fan, Colleen, over, with a couple of other people to hang out in The Crow’s Nest.  It turns out I was there, but in my bedroom with the girl I was dating at the time.  So she met the others but didn’t meet me. 

It would take a Bob Dylan concert to bring us together for our first real encounter.  Bob Dylan had become a link in a chain of karhythms that tied us to the beat poets. 

We purchased tickets to see Dylan and my mother told me that it was Bob Dylan’s song “Don’t Think Twice, It’s All Right,” that had been a source of great comfort to her.  Just the week before she had been struggling through a painful incident and she played that song over and over on her drive to Branson.   She had gone to stay a couple of days in her friend’s cabin near the lake.  She needed to leave town.  It was a sad time for our family.  We were all traumatized by it and my mother had told me the story of how that song had given her such comfort.  She hadn’t been a huge Bob Dylan fan, she was a Simon and Garfunkel and a Peter, Paul and Mary kinda gal.  It was the latter’s version of the song, I’m pretty sure, she was listening to on the drive to Branson, but we talked about how important Bob Dylan had been to music and so on and what a perfect song he’d written in capturing how she felt at that moment, about how much strength it gave her.  I found it strange that I was going to see Bob Dylan for the first time, having bought the tickets the same day she’d driven to Branson.   Bob Dylan was in the air, let’s just say.  Like the universe was saying the Bob Dylan concert was a significant event.  It was important that I was seeing him.  I can’t explain it. 

So it happens that Craig and Colleen among others of their group were at the concert as well.  Craig and Colleen came down to our seats to talk to us.  Only I didn’t know who she was at first, having had consumed many beers. I just thought she was some random pretty girl seated near us.  She looked different than she had at the bar watching Shad play.  She was wearing a homemade shirt and her hippy attire.  We struck up a conversation.  I was very excited to see Bob Dylan.  I tried to stress the significance of it.  I was still reeling from the idea that it was important that I was seeing Bob Dylan.  I compared it to going back in time and watching Mozart perform.  It was historically relevant that we were seeing this man in person.   At the end of the conversation I invited her to a party at our apartment. There was no such party, but I figured if her group showed it would then in fact turn into one.   She was very easy to talk to.  I felt as though I’d known her from somewhere before.  She was so familiar to me.  Traffic getting out of the lot kept them from driving all the way down town.  She still lived in the suburbs.  

I was directing a sketch comedy show in a small theater on the north side and invited Craig to come see it and to bring his friends.  We needed audiences.  So when he did arrive he brought with him Colleen, among other friends. 

Another concert had been scheduled for later that week, this time it was Tom Waits.  While I’m a huge Tom Waits fan, it had been a long summer of concerts.  I don’t like the crowds.  So I opted out and Craig ended up with my ticket. This we decided after my comedy show, at the bar across the street from the theater.  So Colleen asked me what I was doing that Saturday instead of going to the concert.  She suggested that since Craig and the boys would be at the concert that perhaps we should hang out until the show was over and meet up with them.  For some reason, I was under the impression that Craig and Colleen were involved to some degree.  This turned out not to be the case, but at the time I was leery of inferring anything other than a plutonic evening of hanging out.  A few days before Saturday, Shad insisted that Craig and Colleen were just friends.  Craig had a thing for Colleen’s sister Dawn, who lived in San Diego.  He was going to eventually move out there to be with her.  But still, I assumed the outing wasn’t a date.  One smaller coincidence, but one that helps me forever remember the date, was that my brother Josh and Shad were born on the same day at the same hospital.  It was August Twenty-Sixth. They literally met at birth in the paternity ward in Joplin.  It would take another eighteen years for them to meet up again. 

So on Shad and Josh’s birthday, August Twenty-Sixth, I took Colleen to my favorite Mexican restaurant, just down the street from The Second City in Old Towne.  I ordered a pitcher of margaritas because we were hanging out and drinking together.  I figured that’s what you did when you hung out with someone.  As I’ve said, she was extremely easy to talk to and she laughed at my lame humor.  The margaritas helped.  We bonded over our parents’ mirrored hardships.  She’d gone through something similar, but hers had ended differently.  As we were leaving the restaurant I stumble out the door, literally tripped on the rise and I caught myself on the buzzer outside on the wall.  It rang throughout the restaurant for a while before I could get my balance.  Colleen found this to be the funniest thing she’d ever seen.  I tried to wave an apology to the nearest waitress as we hurried away. 

The late summer heat still blanketed the air.  She suggested we go to the fountain in Grant Park.  We still had some time to kill before the concert was over, a lot of time actually.  We took a cab to Michigan Avenue and strolled through the park, talking and laughing.  When we arrived at the fountain, it was gurgling and dormant.   We stood talking, when a gypsy lady, at least that was my first impression, mumbled to get my attention.   She was hunched over and short, so I bent forward to hear what she was saying.  As I did this she stuck a rose into my hand.  I then realized, or assumed, she was homeless.  So I pulled out a dollar and handed it to her.  At least she was trying to sell something instead of just begging, I thought.   The next thought was that she could take her rose back and sell it again to someone else.  I didn’t need the rose.  But she’d disappeared.  I looked around and couldn’t see her anywhere.  Well, I thought, I’m stuck holding this rose now.  Honestly that went through my thick head.  Oh wait, there’s a perfectly lovely girl right there, maybe she’d like it. So I handed it to Colleen.  Now she wasn’t in my head and didn’t hear my stupid voice going through all of this.  She simply saw it as a romantic gesture.  So she grabbed me by the shoulders and pulled me into her.  And just as our mouths began to explore one another’s the fountain erupted! 

As if on cue, the lights came up, the music blasted classical music, and the water shot high into the air.  It was just like the beginning of Married with Children.  What an omen!  Love and marriage indeed.

To mark the occasion of our first meeting we named our son Dylan.

Another karhythm happened a few years ago, but more recently.  I had written my second novel The Primrose Path and was very proud of it.  I sent out what must have been fifty query letters to agents and managers.   The ones I heard from all said they liked it but it didn’t fit with their agency or some variation of that.  I couldn’t figure out what was wrong. I had an author friend of mine read my query.  She made a few suggestions but overall it was a good letter.   I was growing more depressed by the day.   In the meantime I had written a play for my brother Ryan who was living in Chicago.  He was acting and had been in a few plays.  He is very talented.   He called me with an idea about reincarnation.  For fiction reincarnation is a wonderful concept in my opinion.  It’s up there with time travel.  So after several phone calls I sat down to write a play that he could star in.  We figured he was in with an acting company and could most likely get it to them.   We had a reading at the theater with a group of actors and it was received very well.  I was able to really hear it for all of its strengths and weaknesses and I did some major renovations on it.   And then Ryan presented it to the producer.  At first the producer said he was interested in maybe doing the play.  But he back peddled around the end of the year.  I began to think the problem was me.  Perhaps I was cursed.  I don’t even know if I really believe in curses but I was in a dark place.  The producer, though he really liked the play, had booked the theater to another lady who’d written a musical.  He’d done business with her before and he knew her well.  Ryan was moving to LA at the end of spring.  His wife had taken a job there and, being an actor, it was time for Ryan to make the leap from the minors of Chicago to attempt the big leagues of Hollywood.  The play had to be done that spring or never.  It looked like I couldn’t even get a play produced.  The cursed concept grew as more rejection for my novel came my way.   Then in late January or early February my wife’s grandfather passed away.  I had given up hope for the play but it was still on my mind.  At the church during the funeral service my son Dylan asked rather loudly if the priest was Jesus.  It triggered a thought about God and my concept of God.   I began to pray.  But it wasn’t a conventional, “Dear God,” prayer.  It was more of a meditation and a chant.  I closed my eyes and chanted over and over again, letting my mind vanish almost.  Only the chant existed, “Please lift my curse.  Please lift my curse.  Please lift my curse.”  I don’t know how long I did that for.  I went to a strange place for just a moment.  Then the service was over and we all went to an Italian restaurant to eat lunch.   I was seated at my table when a text arrived on my phone from my brother.   “They’re going to do the play.”

Ryan had given the play to a director who he really respected.  The director had directed several shows for the producer and had a long standing relationship with him.  The director must have spoken with the producer and the producer decided to do two shows on Fridays and Saturdays instead of one.   The director really wanted to direct our play. He too was moving to LA and it would be the last play he’d direct in Chicago.  So, the musical would be the early show and we’d be the late one. 

The experience taught me a great deal about writing.  And working with my brother was a true gift that I will always have.   That summer I wrote another novel Devil Music that I am also very proud of.    It gave me a better understanding of writing multiple characters.  Imagining actors in the roles helps, for those young writers out there.   I don’t know if there really was a curse, or still is, and I don’t know if I was able to lift it long enough to get a play produced and therefore be afforded the invaluable experience of working with my brother before he left town for good, but then again, neither do you. 

Here’s a story that I like very much.   What’s it mean?  Probably nothing, but it’s interesting.   I wonder how many people you’ve been in close proximity to as a child or as a younger person, but never met until years later.   You’ve always been a younger person, though, right?  On a basic level it just means, we all move around a lot and there are hot spots where people gather.   You’re bound to run across someone you’ll later meet.  But I’m still playing what-if.  It’s fun.

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-1285238/Engaged-couple-discover-paths-crossed-Disney-World-toddlers.html

I remember my family’s first trip to New York.   I was sixteen.  We decided to have lunch at the Hard Rock Café.  My hometown friends, Dan Dunham and Clark Rhodes were there.  Neither of us had any idea the others were going to be in New York City.  My family walked into the crowded restaurant and we were awaiting our table when I heard someone shouting.  “Hughes!”  “Travis Hughes.”  I was shocked.  I looked around and finally up to the balcony to see Dan Dunham, a guy I grew up with, one of my best friends, and another really good friend, Clark Rhodes, standing in the balcony waving to us.  They were on vacation visiting Dan’s uncle who lived there.  We were visiting the Italian side of our family on Staten Island but had come into the city to do touristy things and wound up at the Hard Rock for lunch.   We were a thousand miles from home.  Strange things can and do happen all the time; anomalies in the coherent fabric of reality?  But spend your days rolling dice and looking for patterns, eventually you will go insane.  Trust me.

Karhythms and Coincidences - Part One

On Karhythms and Coincidence.  Part One.

When I was a young artist, someone, an older artist friend, gave me a copy of the novel The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho.   It’s the allegorical story of a young shepherd and his journey to Egypt from his homeland in Andalusia.  It’s a book about finding one’s own destiny.  The underlying New Age message is that if you really want something, the entire universe conspires to help you along your journey to achieve your dreams. It’s like that book The Secret.  Now, according to one theory, which I will elude to from time to time, destiny is the plan you laid out for yourself before you were born; when you were ready to return to earth and face your karmic sentence.  But putting reincarnation aside for a moment, the book was a great inspiration to me as a young writer setting out to chase my dreams.  I should buy a copy and give it to a young artist I know.  I’m sad to report that I lost my copy along the way.

There was another book out around that same time titled The Celestine Prophecy by James Redfield.  This novel’s theme is similar in that it is about paying attention to the signs of life, especially the coincidences.  These coincidences and happenstances work like road signs along the way, essentially.  So in my early adult years I paid attention to coincidences and took note of the strange twists in life’s tale.  Many of the biggest moves in my lifetime have been shrouded by these strange events.

Two teachers, one my junior year, followed by another, more adamant one my senior year, steered me toward writing.  I had always been a writer but I didn’t realize that’s what you called someone who did it for fun.  My first book was written in kindergarten.  I can remember sitting at our kitchen table and drawing the picture of the super kid flying out his bedroom window.  He’d accidentally found some radioactive kool aid and acquired super powers as a consequence. The scientist who accidentally left the kool aid out was desperately trying to track the super kid down.  I was five so the words were spelled phonetically and it ended openly, as do some of my adult books.  I had my first success in sixth grade with my Boogerman series.   The heartfelt story of a booger that comes to life and the people’s lives he touches.  So for whatever reason I have always been a writer.  My imagination is a fertile garden.  I don’t mean that as a boast, I’m just telling the truth.  I can’t help it.  It’s perhaps more of a curse than a gift.  It gave me frightening childhood nightmares.  It makes the world a strange and almost foreign place for me to navigate as an adult.  Ask my wife, I still have the mind of a child.  The question would be, where did that come from?  Genetics is to blame for a lot of it.  My father is an incredible story teller and my mother loves to read.  Now according to the theory, I chose that combination of personalities to achieve my destiny of becoming a writer in this life.  I had been in search of such a karmic pattern and found it mixed perfectly in them.  I chose to be left handed, thus more likely to be creative.

Okay.  I should stop here and explain something.  I enjoy thought experiments.  I love to suppose what-ifs.  This mindset allows me to consider anything without passing judgment on it as preposterous or impossible.  I imagine instead the implications of something if it were to be true.  But I have to fall back on my title, I don’t know, but neither do you.  That’s the whole point.  Anything’s possible to me.  It’s dangerous at times because you want to believe something and so you might get caught up in, say a conspiracy theory, and really let it affect your life.   I used to be like this when I was a young man as well.  Now I’m a bit more skeptical, but I still enjoying looking around at all the things I know and trying to see if the theory fits.   A lot of times there will be things you can point to and say well, that can’t be true and so the credibility of a theory loses its sway.   But as you can tell, I like the theory I’m eluding to so often here today.  I’m still looking for inconsistencies.  I’ve yet to find one.  I’m sure others will be able to. 

You might say “What’s the theory?” at this point.  We’ll get to that later. For now we’re only talking about one aspect of the much bigger theory.  This aspect shows up in many other theories.  Note: I sometimes refer to philosophies as theories. It keeps us all on the same playing board. 

So in college I took a job at Garfield’s Restaurant in the Joplin mall.  It is here that I met the people who would affect my life in tremendously profound ways.  For the first time, this group of friends understood the real me.  They saw the artist I was becoming and they treated me thusly.  They were fellow artists coming into their own as well.  We were a remarkable group, I have to admit.  The theory suggests we came together because we were supposed to.  Perhaps we’d even known each other before.  We certainly inspired one another.  I often joke that had we all studied music as children we would have become the next Beatles.  Only one of us had studied music, however.  He is the best guitarist I’ve ever known.  He indulged me by putting a few of my poems to music.  We likened ourselves to the modern beat generation, only of varying disciplines.  I think that most artists experience this early camaraderie with fellow artists.  I even think it happens with non-artist.  It’s when you’re looking for your mate so you run in packs.  It happens in college.  You leave your childhood and re-invent yourself at this age.   You form a band.  Maybe it’s not a musical band, but it’s a band non-the-less.  The Gang.  The Posse.  Some people in my home town formed them with their young adult church groups. 

So when one of our ilk moved to Chicago with his new wife and fellow comrade, I ventured up to visit them. This was at the end of their first summer in the windy city.  It all started when I was standing in my parents’ swimming pool talking on our cordless house phone.   This was back when that was still a thing.  It was my friend Paul and he was describing the view out of his thirteenth story apartment.  It is important to note that I have always been fascinated by large cities.  Growing up in the country, I always pretended to be in a big city.  I imagined looking out the window of my parents’ car and seeing tall buildings where fields were.   So I could picture in great detail what he was describing.  It sounded so incredible and to hear that he was able to live this way and it wasn’t scary or unsafe at all.  He lived in a very nice neighborhood.  Being naïve they’d moved to the Gold Coast.  They were in the thick of it, right above Division Street.  To see the Hancock Building they only had to look up.  He called to tell me they were filming a movie on his block.   He was watching actor Tim Roth walk along the sidewalk.  He tracked him into a bar across the street.  He hung up and rushed to the elevator and scuttled to the Hotsy Totsy Bar to stalk the famous actor.   He never mustered the courage to speak to the Reservoir Dogs star but he did strike up a conversation with the bar tender.   Tom Neery, as was his name, a name I would hear often in the coming years, though I never met the man, told Paul about a job opening at his former place of employment.  He even gave him the permission to use his name when applying.  They liked referrals there.  They didn’t trust complete strangers coming in off the street.  The bar was called The Last Act.  It was located exactly across the street from The Second City.  For you who are not from Chicago or familiar with comedy, The Second City is holy ground.  It is from here the likes of John Belushi, Bill Murray, John Candy, Mike Myers, Chris Farley, Tina Fey just to scratch the surface, all got their starts.  Saturday Night Live’s Lorne Michaels favorite hunting ground for talented comedians and improvisers is The Second City.  Now, a few things about me: I was obsessed with Saturday Night Live from the first episode I ever saw.  Both my brother Josh and I were both for ever changed by that experience.  The Church Lady was the first skit we watched.   Ironically or coincidentally, the ability to laugh at the Church Lady and not feel like I was sinning was the first step in my growing awareness of the hypocrisy and inconsistencies of my childhood religion.  I grew up very afraid of making a mistake and going to hell.  Another thing about me, I like to consider myself a fairly funny dude, when I’m in the right setting of course.   I was voted Class Clown and all.   My brother and I would do Hans and Franz impressions at family parties and in front of my parents’ Gang.  Ryan, my youngest brother, who is now an actor, could do every character Dana Carvey did.  So to me SNL was part of who I was growing up.  It had a major impact to say the least.

My friend Paul convinced me to come and stay for a few weeks.  It was early September, the best time of year to visit Chicago. His wife Cheri had inspired me to start reading Jack Kerouac and it all felt very On the Road to travel and sleep on his couch.  He was working at The Last Act Bar.  I asked him how funny some of the comedians were.  He said they didn’t have anything on us.  One of the things that had brought our group together besides our artistic natures was our senses of humor.  We were all funny dudes. 

I couldn’t wait to hang out at his work.  It was going to be the highlight of my visit.  I arrived and they picked me up from the airport.  I can still remember the feeling of driving up on and then into the tall buildings.  My neck was craned and my eyes full of moist astonishment.   Soundgarden’s “Black Hole Sun” was playing on the radio.  It was 1996. 

So the next day after I arrived we took bikes around the neighborhood and he gave me a local tour.  We went out to Oak Street Beach and then across to Lincoln Park.  We ended the tour by going to The Second City.  I stood and examined the carvings in the façade.  The faces.  Then Paul noticed that The Last Act wasn’t opened for lunch. They were supposed to be.  He took me through the alley and into the beer garden and then into the back door.  There behind the bar stood a stocky old man chewing on a cigar.  He was short and funny.  He was a man from another era; pissed off that his bartender didn’t show up.  He tried to call the guy but there was no answer.  The guy was Tom Neery’s best friend.  He even tried to call Tom.  He looked at me and asked Paul.                                      “You’re buddy know how to bartend?” he asked, removing the cigar stub and gesturing at me with it.

            “Sure,” I lied.  I’d waited tables for three years, I could figure it out.  So I called my mother and told her I was staying.  She said she figured as much when I’d left.  I slept on Paul and Cheri’s couch for a few weeks until we moved downstairs to a larger apartment and I slept on an air mattress in a spare room.  I came to study at The Second City for the next two years.  I received a lot of attention and it went to my head.  I was acting for fun, it wasn’t my dream.  It was to be a source of creative exercise to help my writing.  But there for a time, it appeared I could really pull it off.  I didn’t have a solid enough acting background to make the Second City Touring Company, so I left.  But I met some fascinating people, some I would later see on TV and in the movies.   By my second year, Paul and Cheri had learned enough about the city to realize that where they were living was not a practical place for two kids in school.  They were looking to move to a more reasonable neighborhood up north.  That’s when I decided to call the other members of our group still back home to come and have an adventure with me in Chicago.  Four of us rented a large, gorgeous apartment in Lakeview.  Eventually there came to be eight people who had worked at Garfield’s in Joplin Missouri living within a two block radius of each other in Chicago.  We called the central hub of this group, our big apartment, The Crow’s Nest.  Magic and insanity ran rampant in that place. The first Thanksgiving none of us went home and we enjoyed a raucous feast and I reflected on the strange events that had brought us all there.  It was here in The Crow’s Nest where we coined the term karhythm.  It was the combining of karma and rhythm as in the karmic rhythm of life.  We took notice of it throughout our journeys through the city and would report strange coincidences we’d come across.   Bill, an actual painting and sculpting artist, one day suggested a new name for a red crayon to be Neck Red.  On our way to lunch to Bamby Thai Restaurant, he sang the tune for Warrant’s “Cherry Pie” but the lyrics were “She’s my Bamby Thai, tastes so good makes the Chinese cry.  Sweet Bamby Thai.”  He stopped and knelt over and picked up a red crayon on the street and showed it to me.  “Karhythm?”  He put the crayon in his pocket.  In the year 1999, we vowed to really pay attention to the world.  Somewhere I have written down all the karhythms we reported to each other that year. 

TO BE CONTINUED…

 

The Newest Year of them All!

On family and the holidays

The holidays are over.  For some this is a sad realization and others it comes with a sense of relief, and then for others, they are charged with a new sense of purpose and determination to get back out there and give it a little extra this year.  New Years Resolutions!  Our month long Christmas orgy is over. It was what it was, right?  

I think one of the interesting things about the holidays is the amount of self reflection that unconsciously takes place over the course of all those parties; spending so much time with family and old friends.   We look at our families and we see them for all their scars and truths, we know their real natures intuitively because we know them to dwell some place inside of us as well.  They are extensions of our selves.  Often the thing that irritates one family member about another is the very trait that they themselves struggle with the most.  Some people have the self-awareness to see this.  And so they make an effort to correct it, though it will always be an effort, one that they will often lose sight of along the journey of living their daily lives; caught up in the flow of the world.  That’s why the whole ritual of the holiday season is good for us.  It gives us a much needed break from living the same day over and over again.  It gives us the chance to reflect and hopefully recharge enough to get back to pushing that damn boulder up that hill.

The trip through your past, facing and reconnecting with people who knew you when you were a child, makes you fill in the gaps that you’ve inadvertently taped over about yourself.   But while some are self-aware and able try and think before acting or speaking, many, many others I fear are not.  What is self-awareness any way?  Is it an over active frontal lobe?  People who are not self-aware have less electricity running through the front of their brain?   I know that when we drink, that’s the first area of the brain to fall asleep.  That voice in our head goes to bed and we continue to ramble about the party, the dark passenger doing things for us.  That’s another topic though.  I wonder why for certain people that voice is very loud, often too loud, and it makes them neurotic.  They have trouble getting anything done, they’re like Congress.  While others that voice is barely audible and sometimes not there at all.  If it is there it’s not very wise.  And then for others that voice is a paranoid lunatic, suspecting every one of plotting against them and imagining everyone’s worst thoughts projected back at them.  I remember in Sunday School the teacher told us that voice was Jesus.  So why does Jesus make Mr. Franklin think his neighbor is angry with him because he didn’t wave at him today?  Or make him assume that every comment that comes his way is loaded with spiteful subtext?  Because they’re not channeling Jesus?   Jesus loved his metaphors.  People tend to forget that.  But really only for Jesus was that voice Jesus.   

But this brings me to an interesting thought experiment I heard about.  The Zen master said to his congregation to try something different the next time they were to come into conflict with another person.  They said step away from the situation, if only in mind, and imagine summoning a being of light.  It could be Jesus, or the Virgin Mary, or Buddha, The Archangel Michael, or Mohammad or Krishna, or Harry Potter, you get the idea.  Imagine calling upon Ghandi or Mother Theresa and asking them to take over your body for a little while.  You then ask them to handle the situation for you and to show you how it could be done with grace.  They will tell you to imagine yourselves living the other person’s troubled life.  And once you have done this, you say, but that’s no excuse for acting like a total bitch.  And the being of light says, yes, this is true, but remember, you’re not perfect either.    And you say, if they’re going to dish out shit to me, then I’ll dish it right back.  And the being says, take the high road.  Kill them with your poise and wisdom.  Here let me show you.  And the being, wearing your body like a suit, steps into the conflict and soothes it rather quickly, then they proceed to show you how to best handle the situation by showing the other person that, while irritated, you still have love for them.  You learn to speak rationally.  And the conflict ends with a new understanding and truce.  The being helps everyone see things from a higher perspective.  And then it is over and the being returns you to your body.  So where does this being come from?  Was it inside of us all the time?  Is that what they meant by saying that voice is Jesus?  It could be Jesus if we let it.  Jesus is a concept in this case; an ideal to attempt to live by.   The Zen master said to go around acting like you are enlightened and eventually you just may stop acting and start being.

Ask people to best describe Jesus’ nature to you.  Especially fundamentalists.   Not to say I condone labels but okay, for the sake of my point.  What would Jesus be like to talk to and be around?  Remember those T-shirts and bumper stickers that read: “What would Jesus do?”  Why didn’t the people who put them on their cars stop and honestly ask that question in every situation they were in. Maybe some did.  I hope so.  One thing Jesus did well, besides turning water into wine and healing the sick, was to prioritize what is important and what isn’t.   Keep the prize in mind at all times, the prize being enlightenment and all else becomes less important. Jesus didn’t hang out with the popular people or the upper class, did he?  He chose the fringe guys to hang out with.  He turned the other cheek.  He cared about everyone, not just one group or another.  People tend to forget so much of what they learned every Sunday in their local churches.  They are caught up so much in the daily events of their lives that they don’t have time to quiet the outside voices to listen to the inside one.

So we know this is true about people.  We know that no matter how much you try to make them see things in a greater perspective they will never actually change.  Despite what the movies tell us, people do not have a great character arch.  They may become self-aware enough to want to change but these things have become too ingrained into who they are.  Nothing makes sense outside of what they have always believed.  So those of us who are self-aware can say, okay, they won’t ever change, so I have to accept that and understand that and learn to work around whatever trait it is that most irritates me.  It is a difficult task to attempt, no doubt.  But that’s family, right. 

So we get to hit the restart button and we get back to our lives in the newest year of them all.  It is okay to say, this year, I’m going to try to become the best version of myself ever.  Good luck with that.  Remember that thing you’re doing is the exact same thing your father does, or your mother does, or your sister does.  Do try and listen to that being of light some times.  They just may help us all have a better world to live in.  Amen!  Or, I don’t know.